Positive thoughts just don’t work and are even dangerous.
What works much better is looking at your shadows, connecting with them, acknowledging them, embracing them, so you can let go of them and instead of being in your way, they become your best allies.
Through the years, I noticed that when I wake up in the morning, I feel like crap, all of my darkest ideas are polluting my mind and my mood. And I used to just tell them to go away or to push them down so I don’t feel them anymore.
The thing is that they would for sure come back soon, probably the next morning, and I would repress them again, until I reached a point where I could not repressed them any longer and then they come out as a burst, an explosion of emotions that I will throw on whatever will be the trigger on top, the small event that is too much. and the consequences are terrible and too costly for what it’s worth.
So I have explored better ways to deal with those morning shadows. and I found out that it’s better to face them, accept them, acknowledge them, look them into the eyes, and even embrace them, and then they transform into lights and my best allies.
Let’s be honest here: it’s not an easy process, it’s painful, it makes me cry most of the time, because my darkest thoughts and feelings are really very dark – which means by the way that when they transform they become really light. the more powerful your negative thoughts are, the more powerful your positive ones will be.
I will be transparent here: my darkest thoughts are suicidal ones, yes every morning I feel so crap I want to give up, I want to get out of this dimension, out of this physical body, even though I know this is the most wonderful experience I can have, and I chose to come here for that reason.
I can tell you, it has been a very difficult process to embrace my suicidal thoughts because there were layers on top: guilt, shame and more. I was asking myself what is wrong with me to have those thoughts. And I am aware it might scare most of you, because nobody wants to talk about it. It’s still one of the biggest taboo in our society.
So little by little, I did that journey progressively until I was able to embrace my suicidal thoughts, and love them, and love myself for having them, instead of hating myself for these. And beat myself up, and feel lonely.
When I have been able to embrace my darkest thoughts, something transformed. In the morning now, after I have done this new morning routine, I am feeling much better, much lighter and I will be able to have an amazing day, I will be very productive, very satisfied of what I have done at the end of the day.
So I invite you to step into that journey, step by step, to embrace your darkest shadows, and see how it transforms your life, day after day.